Shooting An Elephant
In Moulmein, in lower Burma, I was hated by large numbers
of people – the only time in my life that I have been important enough for this
to happen to me. I was sub-divisional
police officer of the town, and in an aimless, petty kind of way anti-European
feeling was very bitter. No one had the guts to raise a riot, but if a European
woman went through the bazaars alone somebody would probably spit betel juice
over her dress. As a police officer I was an obvious target and was baited
whenever it seemed safe to do so. When a nimble Burman tripped me up on the
football field and the referee (another Burman) looked the other way, the crowd
yelled with hideous laughter. This happened more than once. In the end the
sneering yellow faces of young men that met me everywhere, the insults hooted
after me when I was at a safe distance, got badly on my nerves. The young
Buddhist priests were the worst of all. There were several thousands of them in
the town and none of them seemed to have anything to do except stand on street
corners and jeer at Europeans.
All this was perplexing and upsetting. For at that time I had already made up my mind that imperialism was
an evil thing and the sooner I
chucked up my job and got out of it the better. Theoretically – and secretly,
of course – I was all for the Burmese and all against their oppressors, the British.
As for the job I was doing, I hated it more bitterly than I can perhaps make
clear. In a job like that you see
the dirty work of Empire at close quarters. The
wretched prisoners huddling in the stinking cages of the lock-ups, the grey,
cowed faces of the long-term convicts, the scarred buttocks of the men who had
been Bogged with bamboos – all these oppressed me with an intolerable sense of
guilt. But I could get nothing into
perspective. I was young and ill-educated and I had had to think out my problems
in the utter silence that is imposed on every Englishman in the East. I did not
even know that the British Empire is dying, still less did I know that it is a
great deal better than the younger empires that are going to supplant it. All I
knew was that I was stuck between my hatred of the empire I served and my rage
against the evil-spirited little beasts who tried to make my job impossible. With one part of my mind I thought of the British Raj as an
unbreakable tyranny, as something clamped down, in saecula saeculorum, upon the
will of prostrate peoples; with another part I thought that the greatest joy in
the world would be to drive a bayonet into a Buddhist priest's guts. Feelings
like these are the normal by-products of imperialism; ask any Anglo-Indian
official, if you can catch him off duty.
One day something happened which in a roundabout way was
enlightening. It was a tiny incident in
itself, but it gave me a better glimpse than I had had before of the real
nature of imperialism – the real motives for which despotic governments act. Early one morning the sub-inspector at a police station the
other end of the town rang me up on the phone and said that an elephant was ravaging the bazaar. Would I please come and do something about it? I did not know
what I could do, but I wanted to see what was happening and I got on to a pony
and started out. I took my rifle, an old 44 Winchester and much too small to
kill an elephant, but I thought the noise might be useful in terrorem. Various
Burmans stopped me on the way and told me about the elephant's doings. It was
not, of course, a wild elephant, but a tame one which had gone
"must." It had been chained up, as tame elephants always are when
their attack of "must" is due, but on the previous night it had broken
its chain and escaped. Its mahout, the only person who could manage it when it
was in that state, had set out in pursuit, but had taken the wrong direction
and was now twelve hours' journey away, and in the morning the elephant had
suddenly reappeared in the town. The Burmese population had no weapons and were
quite helpless against it. It had already destroyed somebody's bamboo hut,
killed a cow and raided some fruit-stalls and devoured the stock; also it had
met the municipal rubbish van and, when the driver jumped out and took to his
heels, had turned the van over and inflicted violences upon it.
The Burmese sub-inspector and some Indian constables were waiting
for me in the quarter where the elephant had been seen. It was a very poor
quarter, a labyrinth of squalid bamboo huts, thatched with palmleaf, winding
all over a steep hillside. I remember that it was a cloudy, stuffy morning at
the beginning of the rains. We began questioning the people as to where the
elephant had gone and, as usual, failed to get any definite information. That is invariably the case in the East; a story always sounds
clear enough at a distance, but the nearer you get to the scene of events the
vaguer it becomes. Some of the people
said that the elephant had gone in one direction, some said that he had gone in
another, some professed not even to have heard of any elephant. I had almost
made up my mind that the whole story was a pack of lies, when we heard yells a
little distance away. There was a loud, scandalized cry of "Go away,
child! Go away this instant!" and an old woman with a switch in her hand
came round the corner of a hut, violently shooing away a crowd of naked
children. Some more women followed, clicking their tongues and exclaiming;
evidently there was something that the children ought not to have seen. I
rounded the hut and saw a man's dead body sprawling in the mud. He was an
Indian, a black Dravidian coolie, almost naked, and he could not have been dead
many minutes. The people said that the elephant had come suddenly upon him
round the corner of the hut, caught him with its trunk, put its foot on his
back and ground him into the earth. This was the rainy season and the ground
was soft, and his face had scored a trench a foot deep and a couple of yards
long. He was lying on his belly with arms crucified and head sharply twisted to
one side. His face was coated with mud, the eyes wide open, the teeth bared and
grinning with an expression of unendurable agony. (Never tell me, by the way,
that the dead look peaceful. Most of the corpses I have seen looked devilish.)
The friction of the great beast's foot had stripped the skin from his back as
neatly as one skins a rabbit. As soon as I saw the dead man I sent an
orderly to a friend's house nearby to borrow an elephant rifle. I had already
sent back the pony, not wanting it to go mad with fright and throw me if it
smelt the elephant.
The orderly came back in a few minutes with a rifle and five
cartridges, and meanwhile some Burmans had arrived and told us that the elephant
was in the paddy fields below, only a few hundred yards away. As I started
forward practically the whole population of the quarter flocked out of the
houses and followed me. They had seen the rifle and were all shouting excitedly
that I was going to shoot the elephant. They had not shown much interest
in the elephant when he was merely ravaging their homes, but it was different
now that he was going to be shot. It was a bit of fun to them, as it would be
to an English crowd; besides they wanted the meat. It made me vaguely uneasy. I
had no intention of shooting the elephant – I had merely sent for the rifle to
defend myself if necessary – and it is always unnerving to have a crowd
following you. I marched down the hill, looking and feeling a fool, with the
rifle over my shoulder and an ever-growing army of people jostling at my heels.
At the bottom, when you got away from the huts, there was a metalled road and
beyond that a miry waste of paddy fields a thousand yards across, not yet
ploughed but soggy from the first rains and dotted with coarse grass. The
elephant was standing eight yards from the road, his left side towards us. He
took not the slightest notice of the crowd's approach. He was tearing up
bunches of grass, beating them against his knees to clean them and stuffing
them into his mouth.
I had halted on the road. As soon as I saw the elephant I knew
with perfect certainty that I ought not to shoot him. It is a serious matter to
shoot a working elephant – it is comparable to destroying a huge and costly
piece of machinery – and obviously one ought not to do it if it can possibly be
avoided. And at that distance, peacefully eating, the elephant looked no more
dangerous than a cow. I thought then and I think now that his attack of
"must" was already passing off; in which case he would merely wander
harmlessly about until the mahout came back and caught him. Moreover, I did not
in the least want to shoot him. I decided that I would watch him for a little
while to make sure that he did not turn savage again, and then go home.
But at that moment I glanced round at the crowd that had followed
me. It was an immense crowd, two thousand at the least and growing every
minute. It blocked the road for a long distance on either side. I looked at the
sea of yellow faces above the garish clothes-faces all happy and excited over
this bit of fun, all certain that the elephant was going to be shot. They were
watching me as they would watch a conjurer about to perform a trick. They did not like me, but with the magical rifle in my hands I was
momentarily worth watching. And suddenly I realized that I should have to shoot
the elephant after all. The people expected
it of me and I had got to do it; I could feel their two thousand wills pressing
me forward, irresistibly. And it was at this moment, as I stood there with the
rifle in my hands, that I first grasped the
hollowness, the futility of the white man's dominion in the East. Here was I,
the white man with his gun, standing in front of the unarmed native crowd –
seemingly the leading actor of the piece; but in reality I was only an absurd
puppet pushed to and fro by the will of those yellow faces behind. I
perceived in this moment that when the white man turns tyrant it is his
own freedom that he destroys. He becomes a sort of hollow, posing
dummy, the conventionalized figure of a sahib. For it
is the condition of his rule that he shall spend his life in trying to impress
the "natives," and so in every crisis he has got to do what the
"natives" expect of him. He wears a mask, and his face grows to fit
it. I had got to shoot the elephant. I had committed myself to doing it when I
sent for the rifle. A sahib has got to act like a sahib; he has got to appear
resolute, to know his own mind and do definite things. To come all that way, rifle in hand, with two thousand people
marching at my heels, and then to trail feebly away, having done nothing – no,
that was impossible. The crowd would laugh at me. And my whole life, every
white man's life in the East, was one long struggle not to be laughed at.
It was perfectly clear to me what I ought to do. I ought to walk
up to within, say, twenty-five yards of the elephant and test his behavior. If
he charged, I could shoot; if he took no notice of me, it would be safe to
leave him until the mahout came back. But also I knew that I was going to do no
such thing. I was a poor shot with a rifle and the ground was soft mud into
which one would sink at every step. If the elephant charged and I missed him, I
should have about as much chance as a toad under a steam-roller. But even then
I was not thinking particularly of my own skin, only of the watchful yellow
faces behind. For at that moment, with the crowd watching me, I was not afraid
in the ordinary sense, as I would have been if I had been alone. A white man mustn't be frightened in front of "natives";
and so, in general, he isn't frightened. The sole thought in my mind was that if anything went wrong those
two thousand Burmans would see me pursued, caught, trampled on and reduced to a
grinning corpse like that Indian up the hill. And if that happened it was quite
probable that some of them would laugh. That would never do.
There was only one alternative. I shoved the cartridges into the
magazine and lay down on the road to get a better aim. The crowd grew very
still, and a deep, low, happy sigh, as of people who see the theatre curtain go
up at last, breathed from innumerable throats. They were going to have their
bit of fun after all. The rifle was a beautiful German thing with cross-hair sights.
I did not then know that in shooting an elephant one would shoot to cut an
imaginary bar running from ear-hole to ear-hole. I ought, therefore, as the
elephant was sideways on, to have aimed straight at his ear-hole, actually I
aimed several inches in front of this, thinking the brain would be further
forward.
When I pulled the trigger I did not hear the bang or feel the kick
– one never does when a shot goes home – but I heard the devilish roar of glee
that went up from the crowd. In that instant, in too short a time, one would
have thought, even for the bullet to get there, a mysterious, terrible change
had come over the elephant. He neither stirred nor fell, but every line of his
body had altered. He looked suddenly stricken, shrunken, immensely old, as
though the frightful impact of the bullet had paralysed him without knocking
him down. At last, after what seemed a long time – it might have been five
seconds, I dare say – he sagged flabbily to his knees. His mouth slobbered. An
enormous senility seemed to have settled upon him. One could have imagined him
thousands of years old. I fired again into the same spot. At the second shot he
did not collapse but climbed with desperate slowness to his feet and stood
weakly upright, with legs sagging and head drooping. I fired a third time. That
was the shot that did for him. You could see the agony of it jolt his whole
body and knock the last remnant of strength from his legs. But in falling he
seemed for a moment to rise, for as his hind legs collapsed beneath him he
seemed to tower upward like a huge rock toppling, his trunk reaching skyward
like a tree. He trumpeted, for the first and only time. And then down he came,
his belly towards me, with a crash that seemed to shake the ground even where I
lay.
I got up. The Burmans were already racing past me across the mud.
It was obvious that the elephant would never rise again, but he was not dead.
He was breathing very rhythmically with long rattling gasps, his great mound of
a side painfully rising and falling. His mouth was wide open – I could see far
down into caverns of pale pink throat. I waited a long time for him to die, but
his breathing did not weaken. Finally I fired my two remaining shots into the
spot where I thought his heart must be. The thick blood welled out of him like
red velvet, but still he did not die. His body did not even jerk when the shots
hit him, the tortured breathing continued without a pause. He was dying, very
slowly and in great agony, but in some world remote from me where not even a
bullet could damage him further. I felt that I had got to put an end to that
dreadful noise. It seemed dreadful to see the great beast Lying there,
powerless to move and yet powerless to die, and not even to be able to finish
him. I sent back for my small rifle and poured shot after shot into his heart
and down his throat. They seemed to make no impression. The tortured gasps
continued as steadily as the ticking of a clock.
In the end I could not stand it any longer and went away. I heard
later that it took him half an hour to die. Burmans were bringing dash and
baskets even before I left, and I was told they had stripped his body almost to
the bones by the afternoon.
Afterwards, of course, there were endless discussions about the
shooting of the elephant. The owner was furious, but he was only an Indian and
could do nothing. Besides, legally I had done the right thing, for a mad
elephant has to be killed, like a mad dog, if its owner fails to control it.
Among the Europeans opinion was divided. The older men said I was right, the
younger men said it was a damn shame to shoot an elephant for killing a coolie,
because an elephant was worth more than any damn Coringhee coolie. And afterwards I was very glad that the coolie had been killed; it
put me legally in the right and it gave me a sufficient pretext for shooting
the elephant. I often wondered whether any of the others grasped that I had
done it solely to avoid looking a fool.

And the morale of the story is 'USE YOUR HEAD', always! Am I correct Khmer Dem? Thanks.
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