Alexander Garcia
Beyond Buddha to Beloved
How I became the first-ever Christian in my family lineage.
Click … click … click. I could hear my parents in the other room using a
handheld tally counter as they recited mantras. In one day in our home,
the counter might reach 1,000 clicks, or 2 hours of meditation. They
chanted in order to clear their minds and purify themselves, seeking
perfect enlightenment in the way of the Buddha.
Each morning, I would wake up to the smell of incense burning. Oranges
and pineapple cake were offered in front of Buddha statues in a room
designated for meditation. Our home was like a temple. On each wall hung
a Buddha portrait, totaling more than 30 deities throughout the house. A
statue of the Grand Master, revered as a living Buddha, stood at the
center of our home. My parents spoke often about discipline, wisdom, and
training the mind according to the Four Noble Truths.
You might picture us nestled on a street in Thailand or China, yet the
story of my life begins in Lawrence, Kansas, home of the legendary
Jayhawks. My father was a science professor, my mother a homemaker
raising my two sisters and me. The influence of a Guggenheim
Award–winning dad and a so-called "tiger mom" kept the pressure on for
straight As. Academics, achievement, and ambition were nonnegotiable in
my search for parental approval.
Radiating Love
In the mid-1990s, I arrived at the University of Illinois at
Urbana–Champaign (UIUC) with eyes wide open, eager to soak in all campus
life had to offer. I had chosen UIUC because of its engineering program
and its closeness to home, plus its diversity and active student
organizations. Back in Lawrence, I had been regularly reminded that I am
in an ethnic minority. At UIUC, for the first time in my life, I met
not one or two but a whole group of people who looked like me, had
similar upbringings, and knew what it's like to be bicultural in a
white-majority culture.
My dorm was full of fervent Christians: the InterVarsity Christian
Fellowship (IVCF) students shared a bond with each other and seemed to
radiate love. They were the first Asian American Christians I had ever
met. They cared about things that were important to me—like living with
purpose and having compassion for a cause beyond themselves. Living with
them, I began to realize that the Buddhism of my upbringing was not in
my heart.
Growing curious about Christianity during my sophomore year, I asked a
friend if I could join him at an IVCF gathering. There I heard for the
first time God's promises declared in worship songs and saw men and
women praising him. I soon joined a gig (Groups Investigating God) and
began studying my first Bible, beginning with the Gospel of John. The
authority with which Jesus spoke amazed me; it's as if his words jumped
off the pages, addressing me directly.
Before I could place faith in Jesus, I needed to know there was a
rational basis for Christianity's foundational truths. Early that
summer, I attended Chapter Focus Week (a retreat sponsored by IVCF),
where I took an apologetics track. I heard well-founded explanations of
the inspiration of Scripture, the problem of evil, and the uniqueness of
the gospel. After the doctrines were satisfactorily defended, my gig
leader recommended that I focus on the person of Jesus, so as not to let
my endless philosophical queries distract me from the main character of
Scripture. Jesus' display of justice and compassion from the cross made
perfect sense, and my reservations dissipated. I found that, contrary
to the media's portrayal of it as narrow, crazy, and judgmental,
Christianity was the most intellectually stimulating worldview I had
ever encountered.
In October 1997, during my junior year, I decided to take a study
break. I started reading John Stott's pamphlet "Becoming a Christian,"
which I had picked up at an IVCF gathering. While reading, I grew
convinced of my sin and need to be forgiven. I drove to an open forest
area that night, knelt down on the grass beneath the stars, and
committed my life to Christ. I had grown up in a sea of deities, yet
never had a relationship with any of them. On that day, I experienced
the living God, Emmanuel: "God is with us." A peace overtook me as I gazed at the sky. That night I became the first Christian in our family's lineage.
Honoring My Parents
By presenting the gospel in a profound and simple way, Stott's booklet
had sealed my conversion. But over a dozen believers had led me up to
that point. I had heard the gospel both through the message and its
messengers, who embodied the Word of God in their lives. Some had an
intellectual style and could answer my tough questions. Others shared
about Jesus' mark on their life. A few of them regularly invited me to
events. God sent his only Son as both the message and the messenger.
Likewise, the IVCF community served as the message and messenger united
as a faithful witness.
For months I prayed about how to tell my parents what had happened.
When I was at home for winter break, I sat in our living room to read Following Jesus Without Dishonoring Your Parents.
My father was stunned by my reading choice, but also pleased by the
dutiful title of the book (written by a team of Asian American
ministers, including Peter Cha and Greg Jao). When he asked why I was
reading it, I told him I had become a Christian.
That evening, my dad, ever the scholar, took my Bible to his office and
spent hours reading it to learn about my new faith. Being from a
collectivist culture that emphasizes group identity, my parents insisted
that our family religion was Buddhism. My mom recognized Jesus as a
humble man with good character, but said he is one of many gods. Both
parents held out hope that I would come to my senses and return to the
Buddhist faith.
As the years passed, God's indwelling in my heart grew deeper, and I
started to discern a call to vocational ministry. My parents said that
if I followed through with this plan, they would cut me off. Sensing
disunity in our home, I decided to stay and care for my father, who was
battling heart disease. My presence and devotion built mutual respect
and helped preserve our relationship. In God's timing, my family
softened to my hopes of becoming a pastor. My parents continue to share
their Buddhist experiences with me, and I continue to share my faith
with them. My mom regularly prays to Jesus to bless and protect me.
Today I serve on staff at a multisite church in the Chicago suburbs. I
help equip members to become ambassadors of justice and mercy within a
ten-mile radius surrounding the church. I was fortunate to have
experienced the love of God and now have the privilege to shepherd
others in living out the gospel. There were a number of twists and turns
in the road to reach this point. But every season of my life is in
response to God's love, not a striving to achieve or obtain it. He who
began a good work in me will carry it on to completion. Through the
power of Christ's resurrection, my shame-based culture's search for
affirmation is transformed and redeemed by grace. I am God's
workmanship, approved and unashamed (2 Tim. 2:15).
Alexander Chu is the outreach pastor of Christ Church in Lake Forest
and Highland Park, Illinois. He is a doctoral candidate at Trinity
Evangelical Divinity School.
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